I don’t like the Toronto Film Festival.

TIFF is aptly named I think (Toronto International Film Festival), because it makes me feel tiffy with my city. Okay, a little lame, but it sets the tone.

I can’t help contrasting TIFF with the Hot Docs film festival. Hot Docs comes to Toronto with things to say. It attracts thoughtful audiences, and launches interesting films. TIFF is about star-power and “movies”, not films. It attracts starhunters (star-gazers isn’t accurate), and the whole city seems to develop an inferiority complex. Newspapers are full of articles like ”Where to shop with the stars!”, embracing my two great ”loves”: starhunters and blind consumerism.

For the duration of the festival I’m surrounded by this weirdness. I work on Bloor, just a hop skip and a jump away from Yorkville – the mecca of the stars out buying anti-aging cream and $795 jeans. People come breathlessly back into my office to report that Al Pacino is next door at Hugo Boss and someone turned a corner and almost poked Dustin Hoffman in the eye. Co-workers suddenly want to go north for lunch, to see if they can spot Ashton Kutcher or Sarah Polley. The desperation to find someone ’worthwhile’ is palpable.

I went out with two particularly tall, swanky looking co-workers, and suddenly we’re getting second looks as we line up for Starbucks coffee – people are literally camped out there and try to figure out if you’re ’somebody’.

At least then I get to come home. To the neighbourhood of The Drake Hotel. Which got featured on a tv special about where the stars will be while they’re in town.

I miss my lazy summer Toronto…

Comfort from little green felt.

People can suck in such a royal way.
I haven’t been leered at (verbally) in a while, so I’d sort of forgotten it happens. But then today… I’ve just successfully exchanged a tshirt, I’ve got a copy of the paper, and I’m walking my lunch special ($4.25 for soup and sandwich) back to work – feelin’ fine. Then on the way, some scuzzmonkey walks past me and right as he’s passing me says something leery under his breath, like “niiiice” or something.
Fuckity weasels.
It’s like they know too, that I would just about punch him in the face if I had realized he was talking to me *before* I was five metres away (I walk fast). At which point I’m filled with rage. Why doesn’t this happen while they’re walking towards me so I can tear them apart and take back the power?

Not reheated pizza…

.. no, not tonight.

Got all inspired about dinner (probably because I got a drive home tonight and wasn’t tired from the commute+the day).

Went to the store, bought me some veggies.  We had:
-potato salad with peas and celery (the good kind, that’s all mayo-y)
-corn on the cob
-fresh farmer’s bread
-warm asparagus salad with mushrooms and goat cheese

I bought watermelon for dessert.  But instead we opted for the
leftover “Chocolate Mud Cake” from last night’s Bregman’s dinner.

Tasty-tastic.

So tasty that we almost didn’t notice our jackass ex-frat house
downstairs neighbours out on their balcony being all loud and
stupid.  I’m calling the cops…  I’ll do it.  I’ve got
asparagus in my belly and attitude in my soul…

A little help?

I get the Toronto Star once a week on Saturdays. I read it in bed on Sunday mornings. This morning I came across a full-page ad that infuriated me, and I’d like a little help in crafting my letter to the editor.

On the back of the “Careers” section (an interesting placement I only just noticed), is a full page ad by Focus on the Family. If you don’t know about Focus on the Family, you can visit their website here (although I begrudge them the web hits). They’re a right wing religious organization that promotes man as head of the family etc etc. Or as they put it: “a non-partisan registered charitable organization that promotes the principles of healthy family living.”

The ad reads as follows: (click here to see the ad on FOTF’s website)

We Believe in Mom and Dad.
We Believe in Marriage.
The family is a schoolroom for life, and lasting lessons come from a man and a woman–a father and a mother.
We believe in mom and dad. Their marital commitment to each other and their parental commitment to their children is the foundation of our society.
Traditional marriage–if you believe in it, protect it.
To learn more, visit www.focusonthefamily.ca”
[oh yes, and it’s an image of a young white couple, with a young white son, and all the clearly visible people are also all white, with some blurry people in the background who *might* not be white..]

I’m still feeling somewhat unfocused in why it was wrong for the Star to run this ad. The link takes you to the fotf’s new website – designed around this ad btw – which gets into detail around why the definition of marriage should be reversed to a man and a woman only – and how to get involved around this in the federal election.

Isn’t this illegal? Isn’t it illegal to discriminate based on sexual orientation? Doesn’t launching a campaign to take rights away from a particular group constitute discrimination? I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t be able to run an ad for an organization that was organizing support to ban black people from getting married, even with a “mountain of scientific evidence” to support my position…

If you can help hash this out, I think it would help me write a more coherent letter. Thanks muchly.

Silent Lunch Screams

Okay, seriously. How can it be *this* hard to find something to eat?

I went to dominion today. To be fair, I could’ve bought one of the Yves veggie dishes (if i had wanted to go up to the 10th floor to heat up my meal). But I went instead in search of a non-microwaved healthy lunch food. Found a “garden salad” – Read: sick looking iceberg lettuce with some shaved cheddar cheese and three cherry tomatoes. Pass.
The “spinach salad” looked much more promising. But unfortunately it included “real bacon bits!”. Pass.
Finally decided on a pasta salad from their pasta bar, a raw veggie tray, and some sierra fruitn’nut mix for protein.

Now I’m eating the pasta, which I can only describe as SBB (salty beyond belief), with chewy noodles. And the whole thing is WET with oil. I mean actually dripping.

I’m only half way through and I’m giving up. Yuck. Geez. I mean, people eat this stuff as food. Good god…

Lunchtime for office workers makes baby jesus cry.

Mixed Messages

I’m going to physio for my knee. So it would be really helpful, and nice for the big money I’m shelling out, to have the various physios be consistent in what I’m supposed to be doing. Heck, I’d settle for consistent in what the problem is.

Doctor: Your patellas are really moveable in all directions, which means that they slide all over your knee. Which is good because you have a wide range of motion, and bad because your tendons have to work extra hard all the time.

Physio 1: You are really tight on that one side of your knee, so your patella always slips in to the inside when you walk.

Physio 2: Your knee movement when you walk is fine, there doesn’t seem to be anything to worry about there.

Doctor: Ice your knee 4x a day, and take 2 advil twice daily with food.

Physio 2: It’s really stupid to bother icing your knee, it won’t make any difference.

How about a little harmony here people? I mean, *you all work in the same office*. Sit down together, say once a week, just have a coffee, a little chat ferchrissakes…

Greenery….

So… in my ongoing efforts to eat well, I bought Greens+.

For the uninitiated – Greens+ is a powdered mix of greenery you dissolve in juice or water “for when your diet, just isn’t enough”. It is of course crazy expensive, weighing in at $35/jar of powder.
Oh yes, and it tastes like poo.

1-3 teaspoons a day, preferrably on an empty stomach (so you won’t throw up that much?). Sigh. But I think it’s actually a good solution. And until I find a way to cook kale so that I can swallow it *and* keep it down, Greens+ is the life for me.

Genetically Modified Foods

I promised this explanation a while ago – better late than never…

This is why I eat organic whenever I can, and why I have a problem with genetically modified foods. Genetically modified foods are food crops modified in a lab at the molecular level to enhance desireable traits, such as resistance to pesticides.

Here are the two most common arguments I’ve seen in favour of GM foods (tell me if I’m missing another biggie):
1) GM foods lead to higher crop yields
2) GM foods can prevent deaths from malnutrition

Here’s the other side:
1) Sometimes – not always. Some GM crops lead to higher yields – at best temporarily (see ‘Biodiversity’ below). Others are actually producing less than conventional varieties. This has led to class-action suits by some farmers against biotech companies for misrepresenting their product.

2) Biotech/GM companies spend a lot of time hyping up the idea that there isn’t enough food to go around on this planet – so clearly we need to increase food production.
False. Most countries suffering from malnutrition are acutally exporting their food away – to us, “developed” nations. Why? Because they are heavily in debt. For instance, Brazil sells 85% of their grain and beans for livestock feed in North America, Europe and Asia.
Bankers, such as World Bank, International Monetary Fund and Inter-American Development Bank, “won’t fund anti-hunger initiatives [in these countries] linked to agrarian or economic reforms that encourage production for the domestic market. That might upset the prospects of earning foreign currency to pay off debt.” (NOW Magazine, April 1-7 2004) Most food shortages aren’t related to food production ability, but to political and social causes.

Besides which, most of the traits biotechnology companies are breeding into foods have nothing to do with increased nutritional value. These are companies and they are trying to turn a profit. Developments are heavily concentrated on GM development for processed foods and livestock feed -> products almost exclusively consumed by wealthier countries.

Other key points:

Economics: Organic food is much more expensive, right? Only because you’re paying the actual cost. In 1988, taxpayers paid nearly $74 billion in federal subsidies for conventional foods. Other hidden costs: pesticide regulation and testing, hazardous waste disposal and clean up, and environmental damage. (GEO)

Energy: ‘Modern’ farms (not-organic) use more petroleum than any other single industry – 12% of the US’s total energy supply. “More energy is now used to produce synthetic fertilizers than to till, cultivate, and harvest all the crops in the US.”(GEO)

Chemical and Carcinogens: “Now the EPA considers that 60% of all herbicides, 90% of all fungicides and 30% insecticides are carcinogenic.” Tasty. (GEO)

Package Deal: GM crops are often sold as a package – you buy the crop, and you buy the (expensive) pesticide it’s bred to be resistant to. For example, this holds farmers hostage to buy Monsanto crops with Monsanto pesticides.

Biodiversity: What happens when you plant just one kind of potato? It’s arrogant, ignorant and irresponsible to have absolute faith in our technology – especially when it’s so unproven. Besides the vulnerability of the ‘one key-one lock’ pesticide-to-crop design, planting large crops of just one kind of crop year after year destroys the soil. “While this approach tripled farm production between 1950 and 1970, the lack of natural diversity of plant life has left the soil lacking in natural minerals and nutrients. To replace the nutrients, chemical fertilizers are used, often in increasing amounts.” (GEO)

The Environment: Pesticides, those that the genetically engineered crops are bred to be compatible with, contaminate ground water. We don’t even know for sure the extent of the impact on our ecosystems. But what we know isn’t good. Farms don’t operate in a bubble – they leak pesticides down to the ground water, crop pollen blows away with the wind, and insecticides can’t discriminate what ‘pests’ they’ll wipe out. One side-effect of this unfortunate lack of bubble-farming is “Gene transfer to non-target species”. This is a really good one. Crop plants engineered to resist herbicides can cross-breed with the weeds the herbicides are designed to kill. Then these “superweeds” are herbicide tolerant as well. (GM Foods For and Against) The suggested solution? Create buffer zones around GM crops of 6 to 30 metres or more, or make GM plants sterile, or plant non-GM crops around the GM crops and use those crops as a decoy for insect pests to destroy. We would of course not be able to harvest those ‘decoy crops’. Yes, that all makes perfect sense. Obviously a much more efficient system.

Taste: Buy an organic orange and a “regular” orange. Come back, and tell me whatcha think…

Rwanda vs The Apprentice

Just chose to watch a TVO documentary on the Rwandan genocide instead of The Apprentice. And it was an active choice, I completely admit that most of me wanted to watch The Apprentice. I pulled myself away too so that I’d watch something that wouldn’t push me further into my box.

How can we all be sitting down every night, and most choose to watch pretty white people scheme to get more money, at the same time as someone is trying to tell us about the loss of 800,000 people. How do you reconcile that? Is it that we just physically can’t comprehend the juxtaposition? I feel like I can’t. I can’t contain that in my body – I can’t make sense of what that means about the world.

How could I not know that 800,000 people were slaughtered? How could I not know that? That every day people went out with knives and hacked people until they died. Hundreds of thousands of times. How can I already be starting to feel numb again, a few sentences later.

How can we not be doing better than this?

Praise-singers are fat, Truth lean,
Carrion-eaters swarm the streets,
Infant limbs between their teeth
Those who know no thing
Trade wisdom with believers in nothing
Between faith and farce a common creed

Do not take my anger away
My stubborn noun, my adjective which,
Like the scorpion, carries a burning tale
(“Ode to Anger” – Niyi Osundare)